Goodbye
If goodbye will be the last word I have to say before I die, I wouldn’t let it be spoken. I’d rather die than to say goodbye to a person that I don’t want to give up even after eternal life.
My hearts truths
“ I may have cried a million times since we haven’t been together,but all the times you made me smile is what will remain in my heart forever.
“When you have loved unconditionally one man and lost that love,it leaves a wound that never heals, a sad and broken heart, a void forever.”
“ when I’m laying on your chest and you exhale, I love breathing that air in! Its like you become a part of me
The Pretty Girl Curse
When you see something beautiful in this world, as humans… we are naturally drawn to it.
I’m a girl who has been handed the the curse of being pretty. You might laugh and say “Ha, pretty girl being cursed for being pretty? Yeah right!” but it’s true.
Everywhere I go no matter day or night, inside or outside, people stare, whistle, yell, give good looks or bad looks….. To me I feel like an alien on my own planet. Yes as a pretty girl you’re more likely to get a door opened or held for you, dinner bought or even “the world” bought for you. But to me, I would give it all back to be able to walk into a room just once, an have no one look or judge me.
When you’re pretty everyone expects you to be ALL THE TIME. When you’re pretty people judge you from head to toe…. Trying to find that one thing to make you imperfect in their eyes so they can feel better about themselves. An when you have THE PRETTY CURSE, men will alway want you, everyday all day 24/7 which can drive a person CRAZY! It’s hard for me to go anywhere because I know, as soon as I walk out of that door, not only will I be faced with jealous women, but men in cars that follow me, strangers that just stare at me.
The idea of going out into the world alone frightens me. Even though I’ve been alone, taking care of myself since I was 9.
Being pretty is a blessing and a curse for most girls. If I weren’t pretty, would I be where I am now? I don’t know….. But what I do know is that no matter if you’re pretty, ugly, skinny, fat, black, white, you shouldn’t have to feel like you’re being judged just off that. But unfortunately we live in a world that does judge. So my advice for you, and for myself, is to hold your head up high and be proud of yourself for who you are! Remember ” No one can make you feel inferior without your permission!”
“I’m scared to lose love but even more scared to love again “
Cold bed
Today I awoke AGAIN, to my heart missing and my spirits low, with no one to blame except myself. I have a million “I should haves” running through my mind…. But whenever I’ve needed one of the “should haves” they seem to disappear. I often wonder if I’ll ever get my heart back, if I’ll ever not be afraid to trust… an if one day I’ll be able to look into my mirror and love the person I see in it!?
Oh, but I just Answered my own wonders…. When I learn to love the GIRL I see in the mirror, then everything will fall into place. Because you can’t possibly find happiness, and love, if you don’t love yourself first!
